To All of You….

10 Feb

I want to say thank you in advance for all of you who have reached out to us over the past months.  Your love and support has been overwhelming, and we have loved being a part of your lives in this small way.  I know that we have been absent for a while, but I can promise you that there has been good reason.  We are at the stage now where we can share with you what has been going on.  This is the hardest news I have had to share, but the hope will be that by sharing it, I reach other parents that have been, or are currently, in the same situation.  Hold onto yourselves, because this is not easy… 

As most of you know, my beautiful wife got pregnant in August of 2011.  After 7 months of trying, we were blessed with an angel.  We received all of your congratulations and support along the way, and we knew that the child that grew inside of her was a shared joy for all of us. 

In early December, we were finally able to determine exactly who was inside Cori’s womb.  We were blessed with a lovely baby girl, and we named her Charlie Monroe Boccumini.  Our life was all planned out:  We were going to be Parents to this perfect little girl, and life was going to unfold naturally along this path. 

Christmas was coming soon, and Cori’s belly was growing fast.  It was going to be our last holiday with only two names on presents under the tree, and we were so excited and thankful for all that this year had brought us.  Unfortunately, life doesn’t always turn out the way one hopes. 

On Thursday, December 22nd, in her fifth month of pregnancy, Cori began bleeding heavily.  We immediately rushed her to an emergency room.  The nurses looked at Charlie by using an ultrasound machine, and confirmed that she was doing just fine.  Her heartbeat was strong and she was sleeping peacefully in her Mother’s womb.  The bleeding has slowed, and everything seemed normal so they sent us home that night.  Relieved, we went home with the intention of seeing our Dr. in the morning.  We laid our heads down that night, grateful that we still had our baby, and held each other thinking that we were in the clear.  We would give anything to go back to that night, but unfortunately, life doesn’t give you those opportunities.  

On the morning of Friday, December 23rd, we went to see our Dr.  We explained the incident, and this time, the Dr looked at Cori’s cervix.  She discovered that everything was not all right:  Cori’s cervix has started to open prematurely, and Charlie was at the beginning stages of delivering.  Cori has a condition called “Incompetent (weakened) Cervix”.  The Cervix isn’t strong enough to sustain the weight of pregnancy, and more often, most women have no idea that they have this condition until something like this happens.  What we knew at that moment was that our baby was in danger, and the odds of her surviving were less than 50%. 

We were immediately rushed to the Labor and Delivery unit at UCLA medical center, where they put Cori on inverted bed rest.  The amniotic sac that held Charlie had begun to descend into Cori’s Cervix, and they were hoping that gravity would help it rescind back into the uterus.  Once the sac had rescinded, a specialist was going to perform an emergency cerclage, which means that they were going to sew Cori’s Cervix shut.  After that, Cori would be on bed rest for the rest of her term until Charlie could be taken out safely, a few months down the road.  That was our best shot at saving her, but we needed Cori’s water not to break before the procedure could be performed. 

On Saturday, December 24th, despite all attempts, Cori’s water broke.  We knew that there was nothing else we could do to save our baby girl.  She was delivering early, and she was too little to survive outside of the womb.  

Cori and I held each other as our world fell apart in that tiny hospital room.  I will never recover from the weight of that moment.  It is burned into me forever:  the pain, the look in Cori’s eyes, the thoughts running through my head, “This can’t be.  I cannot accept this.  But we love her.  We love her so much already.  We can’t say goodbye.” 

The nurses induced labor on my beautiful wife at about 6pm.  Even though we knew what the outcome was going to be, my darling girl had to suffer one more injustice by going through a full delivery to get Charlie out.  I held her hand, not able to take away any of the pain, not able to give her any answers, or explain why we had this thrown upon us.  The bravery it took – the strength – in my wife.  I will never know the extent of what Cori went through that night, but I will always be forever grateful to her for doing it.  

Charlie Monroe Boccumini was born at 9:12pm on Christmas Eve. Our little angel was 13.2 ounces of perfect:  from the tip of her button nose to her perfectly formed toes, she was the spitting image of Cori. I saw my little girl take one small breath of life before she was lifted up to Heaven.  We had been crying for the last 3 days non-stop until she arrived.  Suddenly, a calm came over the room.  The nurse wrapped her in a blanket and handed her to Cori, and we finally came face to face with our sweet girl.  We held her, kissed her incredible little cheeks and hands, and told her how much we loved her and how special she will always be to us.  

On Sunday, December 25th, at the stroke of midnight, Cori and I held our little girl in our arms, said “Merry Christmas”, and then sadly, but with a promise to see her again sometime in the future, somewhere, we said goodbye.  We didn’t cry the entire time she was with us – just cherished the very miracle she was, and the time we had with her.  She made us mothers, made us a family, and although the ending in this lifetime is a sad one, we carry her with us always until we are reunited. 

Our hearts are shattered, and we are left collecting the tiny pieces of our lives to try and put them back together.  She will always be our missing piece, because she was here and very very real.  While others were celebrating the New Year, we were choosing an urn for our daughter.  The world is dark and unfair, and we are holding each other, trying to get from day to day.  

Although we feel alone in this, Cori and I both know that there are other couples that have experienced this kind of loss.  As painful as it is, we wanted to share this with all of you who have been so invested in our family.  Life is what it is.  Charlie is gone, and Cori and I are left here to try and find a way back to normal.  The journey is a long one… a hard dark road.  We have each other, and it is that fact that makes another day possible. And so we take one more breath, in and out…

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242 Responses to “To All of You….”

  1. Kathie Phipps February 10, 2012 at 11:26 am #

    I went through a very similar situation with my angel. Her name was Ashlee Elizabeth and I was 24 weeks. I know this is going to be a hard time but I know you both are very strong women and I am sending all my thoughts, love and prayers to you both.

  2. Nina February 10, 2012 at 11:28 am #

    I have no words… but love and hope in my heart for you and your family.. xo

  3. Tanya February 10, 2012 at 11:28 am #

    Our thoughts, prayers, and healing energy is being sent to you both. Words can’t express how saddened I am for you both. Even though I have never and probably will never meet you, you have touched our lives and our hearts with your journey. Stay strong, stay on each other’s team and keep believing in and loving each other and you can make it through anything. ❤

  4. Kayla February 10, 2012 at 11:28 am #

    I have waited, worry and fearful that this was the case. I am so, so sorry that you two have had to experience this incredible loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you. How completely unfair. I am crying with you at the loss of little Charlie, and pray that you can find peace. All my love xoxo

    • Angelica February 10, 2012 at 2:21 pm #

      I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your lives with all of us. Know that your family is thought of, prayed for and above all else, loved.

  5. Ginger February 10, 2012 at 11:28 am #

    My condolences to you both. I started crying while reading this as I watched your struggles (via tv show) with becoming pregnant. I am a Labor and Delivery nurse and I have held the hands of many patients who have went through similar experiences. I wish you both peace and understanding and unconditional love.

  6. krista February 10, 2012 at 11:29 am #

    I want to thank you so much for sharing your story. You are incredibly brave women! I experienced a loss very similar to yours a few years ago and I know how hard this is. I will say a prayer for you for comfort in your time of grief. Say strong mammas and love will bring you through!

  7. laura February 10, 2012 at 11:30 am #

    I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. You will never forget sweet Charlie and I do hope in the future you decide to try again for a little miracle. Take time to grieve and hold one another for your lives will never be the same. Again I am so sorry and I hope you find comfort in knowing you are not alone in this.

  8. wendy February 10, 2012 at 11:31 am #

    I’m so sorry 😦

  9. areyoumymoms February 10, 2012 at 11:32 am #

    I am so, so sorry for your loss. My heart is heavy and my prayers are with you.

  10. June February 10, 2012 at 11:32 am #

    As I read your post for the 3rd time through tear filled eyes, trying to fathom for even an instant…..I have no words of comfort. I can only say I’m so sorry and I wish lots of love and strength for you both.

  11. Christina February 10, 2012 at 11:33 am #

    My heart is broken for you both. Keeping you and little Charlie in my thoughts and prayers.

  12. briandtabby@yahoo.com February 10, 2012 at 11:33 am #

    that was so sad to here, and it brought tears to my eyes. you two are so strong to be dealing with this. i am so sorry cory and kacy.

  13. Melissa February 10, 2012 at 11:34 am #

    Words cannot express how incredibly pained I am to read this. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Charlie. My prayers are with you both…..

  14. Kristin @ Mondayswithmac February 10, 2012 at 11:34 am #

    So many tears over here. My wife and I came very close to the same outcome. There are no words to ease your pain. No words to explain why some angels live and others don’t. They say that having a child is like having your heart walk around outside your body – which sounds difficult. But nobody prepares you for what it means to have your heart in heaven. I am so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.

  15. wickywickywookiee February 10, 2012 at 11:36 am #

    My heart breaks for you. Thank you for sharing your story with us all. I will be keeping you in my prayers.

  16. Emily February 10, 2012 at 11:36 am #

    There are no words to express how sorry I am to read this post. As tears stream down I hope and pray for both of you… and the pain you must be dealing with — even now… months later. I’m currently 16 weeks pregnant and cannot imagine loosing the precious life growing inside me right now. You have my deepest sympathies…I wish I could give you more. Love, Emily

  17. Mandy February 10, 2012 at 11:37 am #

    I want you to know that I am praying so hard for you right now. I have no idea what you must be going thru. I hope that some peace will come to you and Cori and when the time is right, a new memeber will be brought into your family. God Bless you, Charlie was/is so lucky to have two such strong mommies.

  18. Maria Fahlsing February 10, 2012 at 11:38 am #

    Hugs, hugs, hugs, and more hugs to both of you as long as you need them. I am so very sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

  19. Mary Kelly February 10, 2012 at 11:38 am #

    Oh Cori & Kacy, my heart is broken for you. I don’t even know what else to say. Your beautiful Charlie is watching over you and she knows how much you both love her ❤ I will keep the three of you in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Love you girls!!

  20. Laura February 10, 2012 at 11:38 am #

    I am so very sorry for your loss! My heart is breaking for you both! My wife and i think you two are the most adoring strong women for what you have done in ths whole journey…..we are so sorry for your loss!

  21. Courtney Taylor February 10, 2012 at 11:40 am #

    Cori- I’m so very sorry. I know there aren’t any words to comfort this kind of loss. Please know we are all here for you. Your wife wrote a beautiful piece.

  22. Ameera (@_ameeraraanee) February 10, 2012 at 11:40 am #

    I’m so deeply sorry for your family, and I hope that once your hearts have healed you can continue the journey to having a child through adoption. You have the support of hundreds of thousands of fans including this one.

    xoxo

  23. Diana February 10, 2012 at 11:41 am #

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My wife and I suffered a loss of our little bow Felix Orlando Rodriguez May 13th, 2008. He was 3lbs 17 inches and beautiful. He was born at 31 weeks, we had gone to a routine ultrasound for movement and the dr discovered no heartbeat, she had to deliver as well. That was the most horrifying experience of our lives. After autopsy, we were told he was normal, that it was a cord accident. The cord was so twisted and contorted that it cut off oxygen:( We decided to try again that August and no succes for a few months . So she decided to stop trying for a few months. August of 2009 she was ready to give up, but I knew that we had to give it another shot. She finally agreed and our wonderful obgyn help is along with some meds and the 2 nd week in August we inseminated. Labor day weekend she took a pregnancy test and it was positive. We went to CVS and bought like ten more cause we couldn’t believe it! After 9 months our beautiful Diana Victoria was born 4/30/2010. She has shown us so much about love!

    I hope that this helps in some small way, and gives you guys some hope. Well wishes.

  24. Mel February 10, 2012 at 11:41 am #

    Just cried my eyes out reading this. My heart hurts for you both. Thank you for finding the strength to continue to allow us into your personal life, turmoils and all. My prayers are with you. Much love.<3

  25. Erin February 10, 2012 at 11:41 am #

    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Your story has touched so many lives, and we have all been so invested in this journey with you. I pray for peace and strength for you both. The love you have for one another will make it possible to move forward, and hopefully to try again. Much love to you both…

  26. Maryellen February 10, 2012 at 11:42 am #

    My heart is so heavy as I read this. I feel your pain and I am so sorry for all that you two have gone through. Nothing can take away the pain of losing your precious Charlie but take comfort knowing she is with God and you will see here again.

    You two are in my thoughts and prayers.

  27. Sara Marett February 10, 2012 at 11:42 am #

    The strength it took to write this out and share it is admirable. You’re both so strong. Even when you feel like you aren’t it must be wonderful knowing you have your better half to lean on no matter what. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope the healing process is swift and thorough.

  28. chelsea l. February 10, 2012 at 11:44 am #

    i am so sorry to hear about your loss. your love and strength for one another will get you through this, and your journey with one another has inspired so many other people. i sincerely hope that you will find peace and the strength to move on.

  29. Trish February 10, 2012 at 11:46 am #

    I am so so so sorry for your loss. When I hadn’t heard any updates, I hoped that there wouldn’t be news like this. You two wonderful mothers are in my thoughts. RIP sweet baby girl Charlie Monroe.

  30. Shalon February 10, 2012 at 11:46 am #

    They say everything happens for a reason, although I fail to find the reason for this. Perhaps this was the universe’s way of giving you a perfect angel to watch over you and gave you the blessing of seeing her face.

    My thoughts are with you and yours. ❤

  31. Kelli February 10, 2012 at 11:47 am #

    I went through the heartbreak of losing a child. The hurt is unbearable and you feel like nothing will fix it. My saving grace was knowing that their is a reason for everything. I later found out I was pregnant on the same day my father found out he had cancer. I believe that my sweet baby Bliss gave her life to have her sister give my father the chance to have somethimg to look forward to. To make the journey full circle my baby Kinsley was born on the day our Bliss went to heaven. I pray you get pregnant again and a blessed with a miracle.

  32. V. February 10, 2012 at 11:47 am #

    My heart goes to you from a whole different part of the world.
    You both are role models, inspiration and a source of pride to women around the globe.
    I’m sure this sad set of events changed you but I hope you will find strength in each other.
    Don’t lose faith. I’m sure one day your little Charlie will look after the two of you as well as her little sister and/or brother from above.

    Stay strong!

    V., Zagreb, Croatia

  33. Kerry lupoli February 10, 2012 at 11:47 am #

    There are no words…… Tears are streaming down my face and my heart is so heavy. All my love , and prayers are with the both of you xo

  34. hillary February 10, 2012 at 11:48 am #

    your story has touched me deeper than words. I am so so deeply sorry for your loss. I send love and prayers that your memories will always be held close and your pain wont ache quite as deeply. With so much love and respect.

    H.

  35. Shawna February 10, 2012 at 11:48 am #

    I am so, so sorry. I lost 2 children back to back at 17 weeks & 21 weeks….I know that there are no words to make it better, but please know you are not alone. Lots of ((((hugs)))) from Virginia…and it does get better.

  36. Lauryn February 10, 2012 at 11:51 am #

    This is the most horrible news to hear. My girlfriend and I were rooting for the two of you to get pregnant and we are still rooting for you to find the strength to get through this time. While I may not know you personally please know you are in my thoughts. I sit here at work wishing I could burden some of the pain you are suffering. Unfortunately, I cannot. More people than you realize have been touched by your story and we will never forget your sweet, Charlie.

  37. megan alyssa February 10, 2012 at 11:53 am #

    My thoughts and prayers are with both of you during this difficult time. You are both strong, beautiful women and I hope you find comfort in eachother. I wish you both lots of love and strength, hope and peace. Xo.

  38. Amy February 10, 2012 at 11:53 am #

    :(:(:( my heart broke for you both… Sending all my prayers, and lots of love.. Xo

  39. ElleCee February 10, 2012 at 11:56 am #

    I’m so sorry for your loss. RIP little Charlie angel! You’re both in my thoughts at this very difficult time.

  40. Amy February 10, 2012 at 11:57 am #

    I am so sorry for your loss.. It brought tears to my eyes. We came close with having early labor but we caught it and overcome it and had our baby boy on December 22. I know the pain must be really hard and it breaks my heart to hear you are going through this. It will get better overtime and you two are very strong women. Charlie knows you love her and she will always know that. Keep your head up girls.. Hugs..

  41. Audra Volpi February 10, 2012 at 11:58 am #

    I cannot even imagine what you two have gone through over the past month and a half. The love for a child is like none other and you two gave Charlie every ounce of your love without hesitation. Your little Christmas Angel.

    My heart goes out to you and I am holding you close in my thoughts. You are two of the most devoted, loving women who will be amazing parents to the lucky little Boccumini who chooses you in the future.

    ((hugs))

  42. Nike February 10, 2012 at 12:00 pm #

    I will not even try to put into words how sorry I am because there is nothing that can really lessen your pain.
    Just know that you’re in the thoughts and hearts of so many people.
    Your story, your love, has touched so many.

    Sending even more love, strength and cupcakes!

  43. Hillary Campbell February 10, 2012 at 12:01 pm #

    I can not change this outcome although if I could I would. The pain through a time like this no one can take away. I will release a balloon for charlie the same day I lost my last child, lillian grace, on october 23. I have no doubts that you two will be amazing parents and I know there is a child that will run through the halls of your home one day. I will pray for two.

  44. StacyHall (@ia2Va) February 10, 2012 at 12:02 pm #

    I am sooo sorry for your loss. There are truly no words. I don’t know exactly what you are going through, and won’t pretend too. I have lost 3 babies myself though. You will get through it….one day at a time. God bless.

  45. Melody Valier February 10, 2012 at 12:03 pm #

    heartbroken for both of you. I wished I could send enough positive energy & love to heal your hearts, but only time & each other will help. Praying for healing, joy, & love.

  46. Mary February 10, 2012 at 12:03 pm #

    I am so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you both. lots of love xoxo

  47. Mari February 10, 2012 at 12:06 pm #

    All the love in the world for u both… stay strong.

  48. Jennifer Mills February 10, 2012 at 12:06 pm #

    Words simply cannot express the emotions I am feeling at this moment. I read your post through tears…my heart is aching for a couple who could not have deserved the gift of a child more. You are so right. She is and always will be your daughter. I wish you could have spent more time getting to know her and her getting to know her incredibly loving parents. Stay strong. Lean on eachother. Know that you have many people who have you two in your thoughts. ❤

  49. Seven February 10, 2012 at 12:08 pm #

    So sorry you two wonderful women had to go through that. I can only imagine how painful it was and still is. Just know how strong you are and how strong Charlie would want you to be. i’m sending lots of love to your family.

  50. meganelizabeth February 10, 2012 at 12:09 pm #

    Thank you for having the courage to share your story. It is some important right now that you love on and support one another. I can’t even imagine what you both went through that week and I hope that little Charlie’s light from heaven guides you through this very dark time. I truly believe God made you two for each other. And he made Charlie for both of you, but it sounds like he had some big plans for her in heaven as well.

    I wish both of you strengh, love and courage these next few months and for the rest of your lives. Losing a baby is an unimaginable event, but don’t forget you have each other to lean on. Sending you some positive energy and love.

  51. Kristin February 10, 2012 at 12:09 pm #

    My heart breaks for you 2. Thank you for sharing your story with us all. i cannot even imagine what u two r going through, I will be keeping you in my prayers

  52. Irene M. Cruz February 10, 2012 at 12:14 pm #

    I am speechless after reading this. I too wondered what happened and why we hadn’t heard from you…I am so sorry for your loss and this huge gaping hole in the road of life that has been thrown in your path. I hope that you are both able to get through this rough time together and somehow in the midst of the anger, pain and sadness come out stronger as a couple and as a family, on the other side. I can only hope that as each day passes that you are able to reflect on this time and take whatever good you can from it and move on to a brighter future. Best of Luck to you both and I can speak for myself when I say that I hope to continue hearing from you two, once you are able to pick up some of the shattered pieces of your lives. Sending good, soothing, positive vibes your way.

  53. Jasmine February 10, 2012 at 12:15 pm #

    First I want to say i am so sorry for your lost. As I was reading on I had hope that by Miracle little baby Charlie would have survived. I’ve been attached to you guys since the show. Your one of me favorite couples. You two are so good with each other. I Will pray again for you two, I hope you have not given up. Maybe you should switch since its a Risk for cori to carry a full term pregnancy. What ever your decision you have my support. You two will overcome this, because of the strong love you have for each other. Charlie would want you to try I again don’t give up just look into other options. Thank you for your time and I will keep you in my prayers! Another angel will be in your arms I just know it.

  54. Kimberley February 10, 2012 at 12:15 pm #

    I admire you both so much for sharing your lives with all of your fans. May god bless you both through this time and will you always find comfort in Charlie and your fans! love conquers all

  55. Chris February 10, 2012 at 12:15 pm #

    I am so sorry for your loss, and so sorry that you had to go through this. I send you both strength and love. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  56. Rose February 10, 2012 at 12:22 pm #

    Our heart and prayers go out to the both of you. And thank you for sharing one of the most private moments of your lives. I can only imagine what you are going through. One step at a time, one day after another. Heaven has gained another beautiful angel.

  57. palp February 10, 2012 at 12:24 pm #

    I am so so sorry for your loss….i know right now that it does not seem like it will get better but it does and there is light at the end of this dark tunnel. I lost my first born the same way I didn’t know I had a problem until I was in labor at 25 weeks…everything that everyone told didn’t matter I was so mad at everybody because I didn’t understand why me but with my family close by me I got thru the loss of my son my thoughts and prayer are with you you both.

  58. lourdes February 10, 2012 at 12:26 pm #

    im so so so sorry for your loss, i can’t imagine the pain …. may god bless you both and i know in my hearth that you will find charlie … you will have a big happy family .

  59. MeishaConley February 10, 2012 at 12:28 pm #

    I just read your post and commend the strengh it took to write it. You and Cori are in our prayers and we are thankful that your bond is strong enough to get you through this difficult time. Kristen and I will hold your family in our hearts and our prayers..
    God Bless!!!

  60. Chantelle February 10, 2012 at 12:29 pm #

    I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you both. Be kind to yourselves.

  61. Lauralee February 10, 2012 at 12:30 pm #

    There are really no words to say during this time. But there are a million unanswered questions. My family experienced this loss 4years ago this coming September when my sister had complications in the last 3 weeks Angel-Rain was her name, we had to go through the labour too but it was too late. Sent home also the day before after a check up. A beautiful little girl. Something that we heard at that time is a little verse it goes an angel in the book of life wrote down your baby’s birth and whispered as he closed the book too beautiful for this earth. I know going forwards everything you see and do will make you think of her other kids that would be her age will. I know because I do it as I remember my perfect niece that never came home from the hospital. So beautiful. I’m sorry that other people have to go through this and feel what I felt that day. Thinking of you during this time. Our song for angel-rain is love will keep us alive by the eagles. Xx i know we will see them again

  62. April February 10, 2012 at 12:31 pm #

    Kacy and Cori—you two are such beautiful and strong women. Your pain brought tears to my eyes. I can’t imagine how it must be day to day for you.. It was so brave for you to share your story. Sending love and healing thoughts your way…I’m so so sorry.

  63. Michelle February 10, 2012 at 12:35 pm #

    I am just bawling my eyes out reading this. I lost 2 babies in 2 years, the last one happened this December as well. It is so hard to finally reach the excitement of pregnancy, only for it to end before it starts. No one understands how hard this is, and I always feel like my friends and family don’t want to talk about it, like the baby is a dirty secret that cant be mentioned. I know that both me and my husband are still struggling with it every day. I would like to say things will be better, and they will, but that kind of loss stays with us for a lifetime. I think the hardest thing ever is when you get closer to the due date. Whatever happens, please try not to become bitter, even though it is easy to be angry, it will only tear you up. My sincere condolences to the both of you. I wouldnt wish this kind of pain on my worse enemy.

  64. mingomama February 10, 2012 at 12:39 pm #

    I too have a similar story. If you ever need extra support, please feel free to contact me.

    xxoo

  65. Bobbiejo and Jennie February 10, 2012 at 12:41 pm #

    I feel your heart ache…My wife and i lost our baby at 6weeks then two years later we were blessed with a healthy baby to adopt after a four year battle to keep our son he was returned to his birth mother two weeks ago to never see us again…i am sorry for your pain lossing a child in any form is the most heart breaking feeling in the world

  66. Julissa February 10, 2012 at 12:43 pm #

    As I sit in my office reading this blog, tears just ran down my face. When Teanna (my wife) and I watch this past season, we were so thrilled to see a couple that was just like us in so many ways. We were so excited for you guys when you annouced Cori was finally pregnant and we couldnt wait to read blogs on how everything was going with you guys. Teanna has a daughter Jersie, she is 9 and a DIVA at that. We go through ups and downs with Jersie all the time. Sometimes I say that I cant stand her and I even said one time that I wish she was not here. Crazy, right! After reading everything you went guys went through and the pain that you are going through makes me think twice on how I feel about Jersie. You guys lost your baby and here I am wishing mine went away…As strange as this might sound, reading this post has made me realize that I am very lucky that my wife and I are parents to a child. My prayers and thoughts are with you. Charlie is in heaven with the big guy looking down on her two beautiful mommies!

  67. Andrea Aiuto February 10, 2012 at 12:47 pm #

    Obviously I had no clue this was going on. I admire your honesty and strength telling your story and what you have been through with eachother. I have been rooting for yuo two since the beginning. This blog made my eyes cry, I am so extremely sorry for your loss. Sadly it looks as if she will be unable to have another child and for this, I am even more sadder. I wish you love and strength during this time now as you guys pull together and try to move on, but never forget. I love you ladies and wish you will You are in my prayers.

  68. karolina niedobecka February 10, 2012 at 12:53 pm #

    I don’t have anything smart to say…but I could leave this without leaving a comment…I can’t imagine the pain to go through this and then to write about it. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish and pray that there’s something/someone in the wings….a miracle that will come your way.

  69. Autumn Chambers February 10, 2012 at 12:56 pm #

    Am so so sorry! I couldn’t begin to know how you both feel. But we are here praying for the peace that I know you both need. Will continue to pray for both of you to be able to heal. … Sincerely, Autumn and Diane Chambers

  70. Sarah February 10, 2012 at 12:57 pm #

    i am so sorry for your loss. I cant even imagine what you guys are going through. My thoughts and prayers are heading your way. i know charlie will be looking down on her mommies as you continue on your journey. She will always be with you.

    lots of love to you both

  71. Merky February 10, 2012 at 12:57 pm #

    My prayers are with you both as you go through such an experience. As I have never had children, I cannot imagine the experience but I hope that my prayers for you both help you through this as much as they can. xoxo

  72. Lauren B. February 10, 2012 at 1:00 pm #

    Im so very sorry for your loss. I have no words. You both are in my prayers along with baby charlie who I’m sure is going to be watching over your family forever.

  73. kelly February 10, 2012 at 1:00 pm #

    i’m so sorry.. pls just know that we all love you both so much.

  74. Nicole February 10, 2012 at 1:02 pm #

    My deepest sympathy for the both of you. I will keep you both in my prayers.

  75. Bruna Louise February 10, 2012 at 1:04 pm #

    I hope the pain makes you both stronger, girls!

  76. kels February 10, 2012 at 1:07 pm #

    So so sorry…My Mum went through a similar process a few years ago when my sister Maisie was stillborn 😦 Sometimes, life deals us pain and struggle and takes us places that we do not wish to go, but to get through the other side shows courage and determination to live another day. You will always have your little girl looking down on you, and she will forever remain in your hearts…Sending prayers and thoughts to you to stay strong and love each other through this painful and horrible time xxxx

  77. Paula February 10, 2012 at 1:07 pm #

    May God Bless and keep you both close to his heart through this hard time..
    I can’t begin to understand what you both are going through but i would like to thank you for sharing this very personal story with all of us who have come to care about you both.
    Sending positive energy and prayers out to you both..
    My heart truly hurts for both of you.. I am so sorry..

  78. Amy & Nicole February 10, 2012 at 1:09 pm #

    I am so sorry for you both!! Thank you for sharing this story with your fans. I have never heard of that happening. I was so excited when I found out you guys finally got pregnant. I couldn’t wait to find out more details. Sending my condolences to you both and give you strength to try again. *big hugs*

  79. Nic February 10, 2012 at 1:15 pm #

    I’m so sorry for you, nothing anyone can say will make the pain go away but time will heal. Hold each other close and feel the love from each other and those around you, both near and far away. My wife and I have been through this too and I so wish you were’t having to go through it too as it is horrible and there really is no other word for it. I read somewhere about having to go through a dark tunnel to get to the light at the end of it. It probably feels like it is a long way to the light right now but you will get there and one day you will begin to feel happy again. Nic x

  80. Brooke and lyla February 10, 2012 at 1:19 pm #

    You two are in my heart. I have watched the tears and the smiles and hoped for nothing but the best for you two. My hearts break for you. Miss Charlie might not have been here long but I know that she felt enough love from the two of you to last forever. One day you will meet again and be able to hold hands and your hearts will shine as one. Your love for her will radiate up to her and she will always know that she is in your hearts. I send my love and hope for peace in your hearts.

  81. Faith February 10, 2012 at 1:21 pm #

    I’m sitting her crying for the two of you. I’m so sorry for your loss. Unfortunately, my partner and I know how this loss feels. We loss our son at around 5 months when we went for a routine checkup and found out his heart had stopped beating. Like you I will never understand what it was like for my partner to go through the delivery because they induced labor. He too was perfect just his heart wasn’t strong enough. Holding your child in a situation like this is special even though it is an extremely sad time. And you’re right you will always be little Charlie’s mothers. She will always be with both of you as a part of your family. When anyone asks us if we have any children we always proudly tell them yes we do and tell them about our little guy. I know you don’t need to be told this but love and support each other. Let each other grieve and don’t put a time on your grieving because everyone is different. Take Care and your family will be in our thoughts.

  82. B February 10, 2012 at 1:22 pm #

    My heart is breaking for you two and all that you have had to endure. I cannot imagine the pain and heartache and loss you have experienced. Although we have never met, my wife and I love you both and sending digital hugs your way. ❤

  83. Jordan Leigh Wright February 10, 2012 at 1:24 pm #

    Oh my god. Cori & Kacy, you two are my idol couple. I would pretty much only watch the show only to see you two. When I found out Cori was pregnant, I cried because I was so happy.
    This news, is absolutely devastating. I started crying. I’m bawling my eyes out at the moment. I honestly wish this didn’t happen to you two. I would have loved for her to live. I would have totally celebrated her birthday. Just remember to be strong. I know this is a really hard time.
    My girlfriend and I love you guys, a lot. You guys can get through this. You two would make wonderful mothers. ❤

  84. Liz February 10, 2012 at 1:24 pm #

    *hugs* I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you all love and light. ❤

  85. Aubrey February 10, 2012 at 1:27 pm #

    This is absolutely heart-breaking. I hope you guys find happiness and peace. You are in my prayers.

  86. Ciera February 10, 2012 at 1:27 pm #

    I couldn’t imagine what you two have been through, all I do know is that the strength both of you have makes you some of the best two mothers out there! You WILL see your angel again. All my love.

  87. tfmac February 10, 2012 at 1:28 pm #

    I am so so sorry to hear this 😦 it breaks my heart to think of mothers going through this.. My wife is currently 17 weeks, and there is this constant worry that something like this could happen…

    I hope that the healing comes for you both and that the love you share binds you together in this awful time…

  88. Chae February 10, 2012 at 1:34 pm #

    You two very strong, beautiful women are in my thoughts and prayers. I help couples frequently in a donor form and it hurts my heart to know that so many people either cannot get pregnant or lose their wonderful babies early on due to complications. I can’t imagine what you two are found through. We know you will always love her and she will always love you.
    xoxo

  89. dana February 10, 2012 at 1:35 pm #

    As I read this it brought tears to my eyes. I got to know u 2 from the show a little, and your guys’ love for eachother is amazing. Me and my fiance Brynn share a similar love and would love 2 have a child together but 4 medical reasons either of us can. I thought it was so wonderful that u 2 were finally going 2 have your perficet family. As u said, “things sometimes don’t turn out the way u plan them.” We do not know why horrible things happen in life….they just do. We just have 2 go day by day 2 try and pick up the peices. U guys have eachother 2 gather those peices and your love 4 eachother will mold them into a beautiful life 2gether. My thoughts and prayers r with u 2!!

  90. Audrey Arnaut February 10, 2012 at 1:37 pm #

    My prayers go out to the both of you. It brought tears to my eyes when I read it. Thank you very much for sharing.

  91. carly van duyne February 10, 2012 at 1:43 pm #

    My heart breaks for both of you.. 😥

  92. Naida February 10, 2012 at 1:46 pm #

    I am lost for words and I cant even imagine what you ladies are going through right now. My deepest condolence and my most heart-felt prayers to you both. Thank you for sharing your life with us all especially in such difficult times. Continue to lean on each other as you both will need each other more then ever. God bless you both and beautiful baby Charlie! 

  93. errin goin February 10, 2012 at 1:46 pm #

    My dearest Cori and Kacy..this saddens my heart for my most favorite couple. As a nurse I have seen this tragedy happen over and over to sweet deserving couples such as yourselves and all I can offer is my deepest most sincere sympathy. You guys are in my prayers!!! Please take care of yourselves and each other in this time….Much love to your sweet wonderful family!

  94. Beth February 10, 2012 at 1:51 pm #

    Oh no. I am so sorry to you both and my thoughts are with you. I can’t imagine how hard this must be for you.

  95. Misha February 10, 2012 at 1:52 pm #

    Oh no I’m so sad to hear this news. I don’t think there are words that can be said to take away the pain. I know you both will be strong for each other and maybe you will be able to draw some of that strength from the people close to you as well as your internet friends. I wish good things for you guys and know that somehow, some way you will have children in your life. Much love and big hugs to you both.

  96. Amada C. Taboada February 10, 2012 at 1:53 pm #

    As I was reading what had happend i could not stop crying and the tears would not stop. But then after i was done reading I realized that God has a purpose for everything that happens. You both are two great young women and i know that your baby would have been very blessed to have two wonderful mommies like yourselfs. But this i can say some day you will see your little girl again, in the meantime stay strong and love each other and remember there is a higher power that we just sometimes dont understand but everything happens for a reason. I will keep you in my prayers every day and i pray the Lord have favor over you both and that your beautiful love for each other help you through this moment. with all my love Amada

  97. Dauphins February 10, 2012 at 2:00 pm #

    So sorry to hear about your lost and the ordeal you ladies are going through…It happened to us 9 yrs ago and It is the worst pain you can feel. It takes time to heal this pain and we always have thoughts for our daughter. We have an 8 yrs old daughter in top shape and she is our ray of light. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel and if your dream and your wish is to have another child…please don’t let it slip away…I do not wish to see my life without her and my partner. Big Hugs Ladies 🙂

  98. Sabrina February 10, 2012 at 2:02 pm #

    I am so sorry for you both. There’s no other two people I wanted to see conceive and bare child other than myself and partner more than you both. I don’t know you but I do know that you both deserved sharing your lovr with a child. Y

  99. Brittany February 10, 2012 at 2:03 pm #

    Hey ladies, I want to tell you that I admire your strength with everything you have gone through and everything that you will go through. I haven’t had the amazing opportunity to have a child or even the chance to start planning.to have a child, but my heart goes to both of you. My girlfriend and I want a child so bad and I cant imagine what we would be like in your situation. You ladies have given all of us something to look us to look up to. Stay strong ladies!! Your little angel is watching you both.

  100. siobhan February 10, 2012 at 2:04 pm #

    OMG im soo sorry even.though those words dont seem enough i cant begin to imagine what you are going through! lots of love and thoughts from london uk xx

  101. Cynthia Bautista February 10, 2012 at 2:06 pm #

    So sorry to hear about your loss. I was really rooting for your little Angel to arrive. We all look up to you both, you are strong women. May God bless you always. Stay strong. Love you girls.

  102. Emily Y February 10, 2012 at 2:12 pm #

    I can’t imagine what you both are going through; I don’t think any amounts of words can solve the heartache that you are both feeling, but know this: we admire you, both of you, for sharing your story, heartache, pain et all; and although I have never met you, I can tell that you are two of the strongest people ever, and you continue to inspire.

    It takes a great deal of courage, bravery, and strength to be able to stand on both feet again but I know you will make it.

    You are both in my thoughts and in my prayers.

  103. Marianne February 10, 2012 at 2:13 pm #

    M thoughts and prayers are with y’all (sorry I’m from Tx) my partner& I have loved getting to know you both on the show. Your an amazing strong couple filled with so much love. Peace be with you both..

  104. erica February 10, 2012 at 2:17 pm #

    God bless you both in this hard time….my thoughts and prays are with you, I am so sorry.

  105. Amy February 10, 2012 at 2:30 pm #

    I’m in tears. My heart is breaking for you.

  106. Lyndsay February 10, 2012 at 2:30 pm #

    There aren’t words that are right, for this situation. No one should have to suffer the way you two did. The three of you will be in my thoughts. ❤

  107. mtw3965 February 10, 2012 at 2:30 pm #

    I cannot begin to imagine the feelings you two have experienced. I have been following your story and I know that the road was not easy for you two and this piece of your story is unimaginable. I want you to know I am sending all my love and prayers to you and I pray for little Charlie. I do not know what the road brings next for you but I will continue to follow your story and pray that the road ahead brings many good things.

  108. Ginny February 10, 2012 at 2:38 pm #

    There are many hearts and souls joined in support and love and hope for you both and your love and your little family. I hope you feel it, from our little town in Ontario, Canada, and everywhere else we all are.

  109. Whitney February 10, 2012 at 2:43 pm #

    I’m trying to remember Christmas Eve. At 9pm, we were at church, singing christmas songs. This was our first Christmas with our bundle of joy, Jagger. Jagger came 8 weeks early in April. We spent 10 weeks in the NICU. Until I read your words today, I’ve been bitter. Thank you for the humbling moment I’ve needed for the last 9 months. I wish I knew what to say or how to say it, but the thing that comes to mind is “time will heal.” Being in the NICU for 10 weeks, we’d hear stories. We made friends with parents of babies. Life happened. My wife and I went to Miracle Dan’s Life Celebration. Miracle Dan was so perfect just like little angel Charlie. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Is on repeat in my head right now. I feel sad, guilty, and grateful all in the same feeling. I wish with all my might, that you guys can find some sense of hope. I know Christmas will never be the same. For what its worth, hold on to one another. For truly, you two are the only ones who knows how bad it hurts. It will probably another month or two until you can even read these, but again, time is NOW on your side. I will kiss Jag man 100 more times tonight. One breath at a time. Keep pushing. Don’t lose faith. You have thoughts from around the globe. I can’t help but think about little Charlie right now. She’s probably already found Miracle Dan, and become the MOST popular lady around stars. Miracle Dan has a little brother on the way. When there is a down, there must be an up. You little Charlie is my Hero. “A hero is no braver than an ordinary man, but he is braver five minutes longer.”
    Ralph Waldo Emerson

  110. Maud February 10, 2012 at 2:58 pm #

    There are no words to tell you how sorry I am for you, that’s not enough. My thoughts are with you all, I wished you all the best and was so happy for you. I will light a candle for your little angel and wishing you all the strenght to get trough this. I am sure little Charlie is looking over you and will give you the strenght and love. I know how you feel; lost a child myself as well. Time will heal but you will never forget. Charlie is now the little angel, who will always be with you and will watch over you to make sure you will find the strenght again.
    I am really wishing you all the best, all the love and care you need and can get to get trough this hard time, but for sure Charlie will help you with that.
    Big hug and kisses from Maud, Holland

  111. Lisa M.Mezta-Lopez February 10, 2012 at 2:58 pm #

    My wife and I will never know the unimaginable pain..both mentally and physically .. that the two of you have gone through. Please know that though we may never meet face to face, we are sending lots of love, support, and prayers to you both. May God bless and keep you both, and little Charlie .. now and always. Xoxo…Jacqueline and Lisa Lopez.

  112. Adrianna Ludi February 10, 2012 at 3:02 pm #

    With a heavy heart, my deepest apologies. ❤ my love to you and your family that will be reunited once again.

  113. veronica m conder February 10, 2012 at 3:12 pm #

    I’m soooooooooo sorry about what happend it must be devastating trying so hard to have a child just to have it taken away my husband and and I are trying so hard to have a baby but my health right now won’t allow it I have an ovarian cyst. Its keeping us from getting pregnant with this condtion I have could spread to my gd ovary. U 2 are strong and you both will in time heal our prayers are with u much love to u both

  114. princessbec February 10, 2012 at 3:16 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I can not imagine the heartbreak you must feel xox

  115. Andra Navarrete (@andranavrt) February 10, 2012 at 3:18 pm #

    I’m very sorry about your loss. Please take care of each other and know that me and including the world will always be with you.

    Love you girls and Lil Charlie.

    -Andra

  116. jennifer February 10, 2012 at 3:28 pm #

    Holy shit, I thought my heart would break reading this post. You know, the injustice in the world kills me. Angels like the two of you can’t have a baby, yet idiots on MTV have them as teenagers. Please accept my sincerest apologies and I love both of you.

  117. Laura February 10, 2012 at 3:29 pm #

    I am so deeply sorry for you both!! 😦 you are
    both in my thoughts and prayers…. ❤

  118. Pamela February 10, 2012 at 3:36 pm #

    I as a mother cannot imagine the kind of pain you guys have gone through. I am deeply sorry for your loss, I know God has her in heaven watching over you guys. be strong, things will get better.
    sending lots of love your way

  119. Lily Ross February 10, 2012 at 3:44 pm #

    Hi. I love you and your wife so much you are an inspiration to me. And this brought me to tears. Just seeing you and your wife go through this and still living just is so brave for the both of you. I’m only 16 and don’t plan on this but I want you both to know you are both so brave and amazing!
    Now that you know that cori can’t have the baby naturally maybe try adoption. I was adopted and I now live with an amazing family who I love so much. I mean adoption is a great way for couples who want a baby who can’t make one naturally to have one still. It’s just something to put into consideration. Stay strong and keep hope 🙂
    *love your show TRLW ❤

  120. shellymarafon February 10, 2012 at 3:44 pm #

    We are sad to hear this news burt we also know that your daughter will always be there in your hearts and she will help guide your life as she will always be on your side and now she is truly your angel. We send you tons of light, comfort, strength, but most of all the LOVE you will both need to help you heal during this time of sadness. We are all rooting for you!!!

    LOVE,

    Shelly & Simie Marafon

  121. Emily February 10, 2012 at 3:50 pm #

    My heart is absolutely aching for your whole family. I wish you strength and know that there are SO many people out here sending huge amounts of love your way. Including me, all the way from Boston.

  122. Cleo February 10, 2012 at 3:51 pm #

    I lost twins in December 2010, the heartbreak never goes away but the pain and grief does get better. Life is unfair and so cruel sometimes, it doesn’t make sense. After much trying I am expecting again. You will as well when you’re ready. My sincerest sympathies to you both and your lovely daughter.

  123. Luci February 10, 2012 at 3:53 pm #

    I cannot express enough how sorry I am for your tremedous loss and that the two of you are in so much pain. I am so upset about this and even though not knowing you both personally, it feels so close to me just because of how much both of you have connected with us all for being so open and letting us into your lives without even having met most of us. You are both incredible and both so brave and i know you will get through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you both and with your babygirl in heaven.

  124. April Gigi February 10, 2012 at 4:11 pm #

    There are no words.

    My thoughts are with you.

    xoxo

  125. Maggie February 10, 2012 at 4:11 pm #

    Prayers and thoughts for you two and Charlie. What wonderful parents. I hope you may find peace.

  126. Nicole Holloway-Mings February 10, 2012 at 4:26 pm #

    My prayer for you is that the same strength and courage it took for you two to begin this journey stays with you now. May the love that you have for each other and Heaven’s newest Angel keep you lifted. Be blessed.

  127. Hollly February 10, 2012 at 4:37 pm #

    “I’ll lend you for a while a child of mine,” He said.
    “For you to love the while she lives and mourn for when she’s dead.
    It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or three,
    But will you, till I call her back, take care of her for me?
    She’ll bring her charms to gladden you, and should her stay be brief,
    You’ll have her lovely memories as solace for your grief.”

    “I cannot promise she will stay; since all from earth return,
    But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn.
    I’ve looked the wide world over in My search for teachers true
    And from the throngs that crowd life’s lanes I have chosen you.
    Now will you give her all your love, not think the labor vain,
    Nor hate Me when I come to call to take her back again?”

    “I fancied that I heard them say, “Dear Lord, Thy will be done!
    For all the joy Thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we run.
    We’ll shelter her with tenderness, we’ll love her while we may,
    And for the happiness we’ve known, forever grateful stay;
    But should the angels call for her much sooner than we’ve planned,
    We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand!”

  128. Jessica Garcia February 10, 2012 at 4:56 pm #

    I was literally in tears when I saw this. I loved you guys do much on the show and was excited to find ur fb page. I am so sorry for the hardships you’ve gone through this last couple months. But please always remember you have a beautiful PURE guardian angel watching you from up above ❤ just be thankful you got to hold her and give her those kisses and hugs. You guys are a great, amazing, and STRONG couple. This is just another obstacle in your journey of marriage. You guys can get through it…with time, faith, and love…you guys will be able to get through anything.

    <33333 Jess

  129. Raynae Williams February 10, 2012 at 4:59 pm #

    I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your baby. My wife and I knowi wa your pain. I was pregnant with twin boys and lost them because of IC on June 19, 2011.
    I was 21 weeks and had an emergency cerclage done at 18 weeks. Losing a baby hurts so much, but when it is babies that you have had to work so hard to conceive it makes it even harder. I am 41 and will try again , but will have to have a cerclage at 12 or 14 weeks no matter what. It just knocks the wind out of you. When we first started TTC I had no fear, I KNEW we were going to have a baby and be great Mommies, now I am scared.

    Much love to you and your wife, hold each other tight. The days and nights do get better, slowly but they do.

  130. shawna February 10, 2012 at 5:23 pm #

    Im truly sorry for your loss i have faith that you guys will have a family soon, just don’t give up

  131. PUJSONJA February 10, 2012 at 5:25 pm #

    very beautifully written.i am so sorry for your loss.it’s just so unfair and no one deserve that kind of pain.i wish you guys all best and hope you try another time when you’re ready because you’ll be great mothers for sho!

  132. luckylet003 February 10, 2012 at 5:28 pm #

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. Know that your baby girl is in paradise with our Father in Heaven.

  133. fernbully February 10, 2012 at 5:31 pm #

    Hi Cori and Kacy,

    I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Charlie. I have been following your story since the show and my heart is broken for you both.

    We lost our son 5 years ago – he was 4 days old. Not a day goes by where I don’t remember him and I love him as much now as the day when he was born.

    I have faith that your Charlie is being taken care of and in good hands with my little guy. Be strong and love each other – it will be a hard road, but I promise that the pain will lessen over time.

    Christina

  134. Michele February 10, 2012 at 5:57 pm #

    There are no words. May you find peace & comfort in your love for each other.

  135. Autumn Blackwell February 10, 2012 at 5:58 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss! I will pray for you and Kacy.

  136. Cyndi February 10, 2012 at 5:59 pm #

    There really isn’t anything that can be said to ease the pain that you are feeling. I just want you to know I’m deeply sorry for your loss You two are so loving and any child would be so blessed to have you as mothers. I hope and pray that healing will continue and joy will be on the horizon. I’m so sorry my sweet cousin. I loved hearing about how Charlie looked like you Your mama described her to me too. She told me how much she looked like you and how she had your grandmothers long fingers. I’m so glad that you held her for so long. I’m so sorry baby. I hope you never ever have to experience that kind of pain again. Love to you both. Cyndi.

  137. PRISCILLA February 10, 2012 at 6:05 pm #

    wow ……my sweet darlings…… My brother and i were so happy when we heard you were having her . i will let him know the news. My heart hurts for you, Charlie wasn’t ours but in a sense she was. I lost a daughter and a son one at 4months and the other @5 months. I won’t say i know what you feel ….i just know what i felt….. Deep breaths …. Many thoughts and prayers

  138. gg February 10, 2012 at 6:06 pm #

    Like everyone else here I am so incredibly sorry. I went through several of these before I had my babies. Take your time to heal and even though you can’t even go there now, in the future you may want to try again. It seems so incredibly unfair and you will always always hold every baby in your lives in your hearts. You know the cause of this and if you choose to do this again, you can have medical intervention next time. You are both so brave and strong and I have so enjoyed knowing about your stories. This happens more often than is known. Thank you for sharing your story. Remember Charlie knew she was loved and she will always be loved.

  139. Michelle February 10, 2012 at 6:08 pm #

    Thank you for sharing your life with us, I am so very sorry for your loss. You two are very strong women even if you dont always feel like it. My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

  140. Kayti February 10, 2012 at 6:08 pm #

    Words cannot express my deep sympathy for your loss. I know that there are no words that will help you. Please just know that you are not alone and that there are many, many prayers being said for you both every day. Sending you love.

  141. Samantha February 10, 2012 at 6:22 pm #

    I am so so sorry to hear this news, I can’t begin to imagine what the two of you must be going through, but somehow I feel your pain, my heart broke at the thought. My thoughts and prayers go out to you both, I’m not really sure or the right words to ease your pain, but Charlie was a beautiful gift, and I’m sure if she could tell you she would want you to know that she is ok, and that it is ok for the two of you to make peace with this. She would want you to be happy, to live life to the fullest and cherish the time you had. She will always be in your heart and your memory, and she is ok in heaven. The two of you are amazing women, and deserving of every happiness. Please stay strong!

  142. Gina February 10, 2012 at 7:13 pm #

    There are no words… I am so sorry. That is all I can say.

  143. Janet February 10, 2012 at 7:19 pm #

    Take good care for both of you

  144. Brittany February 10, 2012 at 7:22 pm #

    Love and peace to you both.

  145. Tina February 10, 2012 at 7:27 pm #

    Kacy~ I am so sorry for your loss. You both are in my thoughts and prayers…prayers for strength and healing, as you grieve the loss of your little angel, Charlie. Though she wasn’t here long, she is forever lucky to call you and Cory her parents. Thinking of you and sending you big hugs at this time of healing. XO Tina

  146. shannon February 10, 2012 at 8:05 pm #

    thanks for sharing, i wish you both the best- stay strong, you’re inspiring

  147. Kathy February 10, 2012 at 8:23 pm #

    My wife and I send our deep sympathy for your loss. We are sending good thoughts and prayers for you both. Hold and love each other, and you will get thru this. God bless.

  148. Serene February 10, 2012 at 8:35 pm #

    I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is broken for you both. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Take care and stay strong.

  149. Roz February 10, 2012 at 8:47 pm #

    I am sorry to hear of your loss. I can not begin to imagine the tremendous amount of pain this has caused you both. You are in my thoughts and prayers along with my partners. May God bless you both and I hope one day that such a beautiful couple will be blessed with another baby. One that is healthy and has its sister as a guardian angel. Love you guys!!!

  150. Leslie February 10, 2012 at 9:09 pm #

    Sending you both love and light to your temporary darkness. Your little love is radiating light for you right now, you just have to look for it. My thoughts are with you. Blessings upon your everyday lives to remain strong and together for her and each other.

  151. Jantzen verastique February 10, 2012 at 9:39 pm #

    Nothing will take the pain, but you have to know Our children are only loaned to us, God blesses your lives with them and we do the best we know how, and then he calls them home, some too early, but one by one he calls us all home. He blesses you with her, he made you mothers, he knows best and although you may never understand the reasoning, some how some way it is there. May you find peace and strength through this journey.

  152. chrissy February 10, 2012 at 9:53 pm #

    One day soon you will be parents life gives you seeds and you create greatness, im sorry for yourlost and im glad that you shared it with the world im a fan of your family and i pray for your growth I will keep you cori and charile in my prayers an may she watch over your family .

  153. Darshan Sawant D February 10, 2012 at 11:48 pm #

    I am really sorry for your loss. Your angel is with other angels. My prayers and thoughts are with you two. May God Bless you with strength and love in these tough times. Take care and Hugs.

  154. Joselyn February 11, 2012 at 1:07 am #

    My wife and I are so sad to hear the outcome of your long hard journey. We especially hold a place in our hearts for your angel. We have been through similar paths waiting 2 long years to get pregnant. We are due in may and felt like we were riding this baby train together. Life is tough and who knows what it has up its sleeve. You are both so brave. My prayers are with you. We are having a boy. I feel your daughter is an angel that will watch over him.

  155. I.Adams February 11, 2012 at 1:34 am #

    We, our memories and personalities, are all composed of electrical signals in our brain. Our loved ones pass but in our memories they live on as these electrical signals and thus they live on within us. Each year celebrate your child’s birthday. Imagine how they grow and who they become. Those memories within you will grow as you allow them to do so. And in time through dreams and inspiration your child will teach you and inspire you throughout your life.
    Buddhists believe that souls who only visit our world for such a short time have already lived this life. They are advanced souls. They choose to make an appearance that is measured in quality not quantity. They only need to visit for a moment to bring more love to the world than some who live a 100 years. Your child is already touching the hearts of many across the internet, already powerful and will continue to do so into the future.

  156. Chris February 11, 2012 at 1:43 am #

    My heart is breaking for you and your family. The news of your loss gave me a nightmare that leaves me up posting this comment at 4:30am so I cannot even fathom the pain you two have endured in the past few weeks. I hope you can find some peace and comfort in knowing that your little charlie was lucky enough able to spend some time with you and was able to experience the immense love you have for her. All of my love and thoughts are with you. Stay stay strong, I’m sure your little angel loves seeing your smiles from her vantage point.

  157. Melissa Nykorchuk February 11, 2012 at 1:59 am #

    Life is so unfair and cruel at times. Our Allison Elizabeth did not make it to our arms 5 years ago. We had tried for so long and we were so elated to finally be pregnant…I can only imagine how the journey in the public eye must be so much harder. We grieved. We grieved hard. We got couples massages, went on some vacations, ate out whenever we felt like it. We spoiled ourselves and knew that we deserved to be moms, just not yet.

    I am sitting here right now feeding my baby girl. This is not to rub it in, but to give you that tiny glimmer of hope. Our older daughter is upstairs sleeping (she is almost three). We are old moms, 39 and 40, but we are up for the challenge after trying to be moms for seven years. Our doctor had said, “this f-ing sucks” when we went in for a d&c on Allison, but she continued, “I went through the same thing and now I have two girls”. We blew her off, got mad, and spent our summer spoiling ourselves.
    I am so sorry that you had to go so far along, to have to go through labor without getting the reward in the end. It really is one of worst things any of us can go through. e

  158. Mayndi February 11, 2012 at 5:13 am #

    Wow, there are NO words to express my sympathies for you both. I have experienced a similar tragedy. When you think you cannot make another day or when breathing even seems to be an unbearable pain, just look at each other and be grateful! You will never be alone to face this heartache. You have each other to lean on and help pull you through this nightmare. I’m so sorry. My love is with you both. Xo

  159. Sarah K February 11, 2012 at 5:33 am #

    Oh my gosh my heart just broke a little reading this. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine the magnitude of pain and loss felt for your little baby girl. I really so sorry.

    P.s through my experiences with my own pregnancy loss I found a supportive network of women who had been through the same thing. There is a community chat board on thebump.com called “Loss” – it is for women who have suffered a loss in there 2nd and 3rd trimesters. If you need some extra support from women who have also travelled a similar path those women there are so understanding and supportive.

    Either way I just wanted to reach out as an Internet stranger to tell you both how very sorry I am. I’ll send some white light and healing energy your easy today.

  160. Mayte February 11, 2012 at 5:44 am #

    So sorry for your lost and God bless the new angel that is in Heaven right now! If any of you need anything I am here to support you. (((Hugz)) from Uk.

  161. Alexia Zwygart February 11, 2012 at 5:58 am #

    Cori and Kacy, I’m deeply sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you three.
    I can’t even imagine the pain for your parents. But thank you for having the courage to write and share this difficult time with us.

    My heart goes out to you.

    A candle will be lit in honor of Charlie today.

    Xx

    Alexia

    • Alexia Zwygart February 11, 2012 at 6:33 am #

      I meant to say “for you, parents”, sorry.

  162. Tegan February 11, 2012 at 7:05 am #

    I have no words to express how sorry I am and how unfair this is that it happened to two such wonderful people.

    Thank you for sharing this incredibly sad tale, I know it’s beyond painful.

    Sending all my love and positive thoughts your way.

  163. kverdugo February 11, 2012 at 7:16 am #

    My heart aches for you and your family. I’m sitting here bawling, unable to form words. Thank you for sharing your story, you two are such a beautiful & strong couple. Sending love and positive vibes your way.

  164. Samantha February 11, 2012 at 7:29 am #

    My heart broke for you two when I read this post. There is no baby that is loved as much as little Charlie is loved by you two. I know there are no words that could possible offer comfort to you or take away the pain that you are feeling, but know that you have the support of SO many people. I know that I am thinking of you two and wishing peace for you guys, that the pain of this will fade with time; I’m sure there are many others that are doing the same. Stay strong and take good care of each other… You can and will get through this.

  165. Stacie February 11, 2012 at 7:52 am #

    I’ve read and re-read this. It breaks my heart that you two had to go through such a hard experience. My girlfriends aunt went through the same experience and has since had 2 children. It’s evident how much you two love each other and your daughter. What an incredible thing to go through and then to relive it in the public’s eye. What strength and bravery. You have already inspired a lot of couples and continue to do so. Everything happens for a reason, even if we don’t fully understand it yet. My sincere thoughts and wishes are with you both.

    An angel in the book of life
    Wrote down a babies birth.
    He Mentioned,
    As he closed the book,
    Too beautiful for earth.
    -unknown

  166. Kaite and Stacey February 11, 2012 at 8:02 am #

    We are so sorry for your loss. Our hearts are heavy for you, and we hope you find some comfort during this dark time. Hold on to one another. ❤ We are thinking of you both and sweet little Charlie.

  167. samantha February 11, 2012 at 8:43 am #

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you and you family! We love you cori and kaci!

  168. Lauren Sletta February 11, 2012 at 8:50 am #

    The pain you two are going through is unimaginable, but the strength you will find at the end will be something that you will possess for the rest of your life. My wife and I are sending you positive thoughts in this tough time.

  169. Raechele & Venessa Sandoval February 11, 2012 at 8:55 am #

    My wife and I sat and read your story together and shed tears while reading the news… Avery close friend of ours just experienced something similar just weeks ago and still can’t completely wrap our heads around a reasoning this becomes the outcome of such a blessing. My best friend also suffered the same incident 10 years ago and has the same condition as Cori and now her and her husband have been blessed with 3 beautifully healthy children! So all I can give is positive words of faith and tell you ladies not to give up! I know it’s not as easy for us not to get pregnant as a man and woman but we are woman and are just as blessed! We love you both and hope you choose to someday try again.

  170. adrienne February 11, 2012 at 9:17 am #

    I am so, so sorry for your loss. You are not alone. My wife and I have three angel babies in heaven and one here on earth. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

  171. Brooke Tolliday February 11, 2012 at 9:36 am #

    I am so sorry.

  172. Alessa February 11, 2012 at 10:23 am #

    I know there are no words which can make you feel better, but you can be sure that there are hundrets of people out there who are thinking of you in this difficult time. She will always be in your hearts and you would have been amazing parents to her. She will look down from up there and sees how much you love her.

  173. Georgia February 11, 2012 at 10:58 am #

    You are both so strong, and your love will help keep you strong through this difficult time. My aunt went through the same thing, and though it was tough saying goodbye to the beautiful boy she delivered, a few years later she and her husband adopted a beautiful boy, and a few years after that, they adopted a perfect little girl. Their family could not be more perfect and happy, and without their first loss, they would never have found two little angels from across the world to love. I am very sorry about your loss, but one day you will be blessed with a beautiful, healthy baby. Good things happen to good people 🙂

  174. Anonymous February 11, 2012 at 11:05 am #

    You will never know how much strength you have brought to people from sharing your story. If we could send you all our love you would never be unhappy again. My prayers and thoughts will be with you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Charlie will never be forgotten. Ever.

  175. chief free February 11, 2012 at 11:48 am #

    I followed you two on TRLW..my wife and I were so happy about cori’s pregnancy..It gave us so much hope for the future coz like you we wish to have our own angel as well..reading your story now made me cry..for the loss and the pain..but its not yet the end of the world..please try again..for us who loves you and for Charlie..coz Im sure she wants a sister or a brother..she loves you..

  176. kesse February 11, 2012 at 11:59 am #

    i don’t have words. but my thoughts and prayers are with you. i know this’ll sound cheesy but just keep holding on.

  177. Suzanne February 11, 2012 at 12:22 pm #

    Hi Cory & Kacy,
    Also from the Netherlands a lot of love and hugs for you. I am so very sorry for your loss. I can not imagine how it must feel to loose your so welcome and loved baby like this and go through such heavy pain. I could hardly stop crying while reading your post. It makes me feel even more blessed with our little 2-year old boy but also very vounerable and a little scared with my pregnancy (now 23 weeks). We were actually a bit jealous in August when you were pregnant and we (again) not. Luckily our September attempt was succesful and we pray every day that everything stays be ok. A very close friend of ours experienced the same 3 years ago with her little boy at 20 weeks. With a little help from the docters she succesfully delivered a beautiful daughter a year ago, I really hope that you guys will be blessed with that as well in the future.
    Love
    Suzanne

  178. Suzi February 11, 2012 at 1:04 pm #

    Dear Cory and Kacy,

    Reading your story broke my hart. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers.

    Love Suzi

    Netherlands

  179. Bruna February 11, 2012 at 2:10 pm #

    Kacy and Cori, i’m so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to go through this and then sharing it with us. I hope that the pain in your hearts decrease day by day, and I hope that you never lose the joy and never lose the hope of having a beautiful family together, you both deserve it so much! My thoughts and prayers are with you, love from Brazil!

  180. Fern February 11, 2012 at 3:44 pm #

    I’m 21 years old and I really have no ideia if someday i’ll have a baby or a partner , i cant imagine in a realistic way what you both are passing throug. This is not your own lost , this is OUR lost. Be strong , believe.

  181. Fern February 11, 2012 at 3:48 pm #

    And yes , more love from Brazil.

  182. Dawn February 11, 2012 at 9:17 pm #

    I am truley sorry to hear this.. I wish u the best ..god bless u ..i could not got threw that..

  183. Maggie February 11, 2012 at 10:10 pm #

    Your little girl is as special as you knew she would be. She was chosen to teach. She was chosen to do special things that we on earth couldn’t even begin to understand … You’re right, you’ll see her in heaven one day and it will become clear then what her task was. So until then, you have faith that she will send you another little angel to love & hold & raise as she knows only YOU can.

    Don’t let the experience of loving her, carrying her and even watching her move on, be for naught. Think of all the things you ventured through in bringing her here in the first place. Let your experiences and your lessons help you and others in a million different ways.

    I will hope with all my heart that you are able to find some sense of peace in knowing she is as you always knew, a VERY SPECIAL LITTLE ANGEL, doing special things, even before she was born. How lucky that you two were chosen to care for her.

    Bless you both…..

    MM

  184. Revecca February 11, 2012 at 10:55 pm #

    My heart breaks for you as I sit here reading this in endless tears. I have been following your journey since the beginning and even just in the past 2-3 days have started to wonder why you haven’t updated any social media…. I can’t even imagine the great deal of pain and loss that you must be feeling now. My condolences and best thoughts are sent your way, and I hope that with time, your heartache eases.
    You have a whole community standing by your side. Be strong. You are a beautiful couple- family, and I’m sure great things will come your way.

    We love you!

  185. nikki riles February 11, 2012 at 11:19 pm #

    This just…is not fair. Charlie Monroe, a beautiful name for your beautiful daughter. I can only send you love and sympathy from Washington. I admire the strength you have to be able to share you story with the world. Writing this could not have been easy. I’m so sorry.

    You two deserve a lifetime of happiness and I hope that you make it through this devastating time to find it once again.

  186. alabasterstones February 12, 2012 at 8:04 am #

    Since my partner and I first saw you on The L Word, we have felt strengthened by your struggle to become pregnant as we go through the same process. When we found out you were pregnant, we were ecstatic. Shortly thereafter, we became pregnant as well, but ultimately miscarried. Still, we were so excited that you had achieved pregnancy. Reading this piece breaks our hearts, but please know that we send love, support, and hope to you in this difficult and dark time.

  187. Tabitha Jennings February 12, 2012 at 8:26 am #

    This is a powerful story that brought me to tears. You guys were my favorite couple on the show and I wanted nothing more than for y’all to be parents to the luckiest baby in the world and you were. I can only hope the beautiful love you have without each other will continue to comfort you. You are an inspiration to us all.

  188. Jennie Veronika Backman February 12, 2012 at 1:54 pm #

    Not my intention to be mean or rude or anything, but have you Kacy ever thought about being pregnant instead of your wife Cori? I mett you’re both beautiful women, and it will be your both kid anyhow.

  189. Veronica February 12, 2012 at 8:23 pm #

    My deepest sympathies to both of you. There are no words. One moment at a time.

  190. kait89 February 12, 2012 at 9:03 pm #

    Sitting here bawling, and I don’t know you whatsoever. Have never even watched TRLW Charlie would have had an amazing, amazing, AMAZING life. I know that she knows that you loved her so much.

  191. Hanni February 13, 2012 at 12:33 am #

    My heart goes out to you two and to your little angel Charlie. I am so very sorry that you had to go through this, and I hope that with time you begin to heal. Just know that heaven has a new little angel, and I am sure she is smiling down at you, and know that she is holding the love you gave her in her soul.

    ((hugs))

  192. Kristin Sievers February 13, 2012 at 7:22 am #

    Cori & Kacy,

    First off, my heart is breaking over this news. How can this happen to such wonderful people who deserve more than the world? I hope you can find strength through this and really come together as a couple to keep moving forward. I have no doubt you will. God saw something great in that little girl and wanted her closer to Him. Her love will forever be embedded into your hearts and that will help you move on with your lives. Your strength and love has touched so many people and now you have Charlie to give you the strength and love. I know there aren’t words that can take away the pain you are feeling, but whatever I can send through prayers and positive energy, I will do that and then some.

    The world isn’t always fair, but never lose sight of the love you two have. Because you see now that it can get you through anything and one day you will see the good outcomes to all that you have gone through. Two special people like you deserve it.

    xoxo

  193. Susan Davis February 13, 2012 at 9:15 am #

    My prayers are with you both. May God give you both a peace that passes all understanding. I grieve for your loss.

  194. Maddy February 13, 2012 at 12:24 pm #

    Much love to both of you. You two were my favorite people on the show because you were so authentic and your journey so real (I did a project on Lesbians in Pop Culture for a Women in Pop Culture class and included you guys because your story was so inspiring). Keep your heads up, gals. Positive vibes your way!

  195. Nik February 14, 2012 at 1:13 am #

    I love you both so much beyond comprehension. You both are the strongest people I know. xo, Nik

  196. joyce sheppard February 14, 2012 at 12:28 pm #

    Dear Cori and Kacy,

    I’m so sorry for your loss. But please, when the time is right for the two of you, and if you are able to try again or want to consider adoption please do it. You will both make wonderful parents. My partner and I are blessed with a son (now 12years old). We had a hard time getting pregnant, followed by a difficult pregnancy and a difficult delivery. But he was really worth all the effort it took to bring him into this world. We’ve tried to have another child to no avail as we started too late (late 40’s) and are now on an adoption wait list. There’s so many great kids out there waiting for a home – please consider it.
    The two of you are strong and I know that when it is meant to be a little one will bless you both. Much love.

  197. Dawn February 14, 2012 at 12:57 pm #

    Thank you three so much for sharing such a private and painful part of your life with us….I am honored. It was pure pleasure watching your beautiful relationship on t.v. Although I am a straight woman who has been married for 18 years, your love and commitment to each other was envied every week. You two are an inspirational to me.

    No words can express how sad I am to here this news. Your love for each other is magical, and that love will see you through this.

    Be strong…and thank you again for sharing this….here’s a big hug from me to you!!

  198. Dany & Maja February 15, 2012 at 2:06 am #

    I just read about your loss and I’m so deeply sorry that you have to go through this suffer… I’ve experienced the same in August 2011. My spirit-baby left me by 10th week pregnancy and the pain was the strongest I’ve ever felt. Someone send me this little story I want to send you. It helped me like nothing else and we tried it again. Now I’m pregnant again and this time everything just looks fine. My wife and I we’re so grateful for this to happen so quickly again… I want to say: even if it seems like the most devastating time right now… there is still hope! My best wishes and prayers from Germany to you girls… here is the story:

    Taken from: Babycatcher by Peggy Vincent.
    Colin, my twelve-year-old son, discovered me late one rainy afternoon sitting at the kitchen table, a damp kleenex in my hand, wiping my tears as i tried to compose myself for his sake. It was the third week on January, two months after i’d miscarried a pregnancy, but i still found it impossible to get through a day without at least one meltdown into misery.
    Colin asked “are you crying about the baby?”, and when i nodded tearfully, he said, “well you’ll just have to have another one, mum, because its a spirit baby, and you should be its mother”.
    I must have looked puzzled because he said, “dont you know about spirit babies?”
    So my first child, not yet a teenage boy, pulled a wooden chair to my side and draped his arm over my shoulders and said “Well, here’s how it is. See i was one myself, so thats how i know. Anyway, every woman has a circle of babies that goes around and around above her head, and those are all the possible babies she could have in her whole life. Every month, one of those babies is first in line. If she gets pregnant, then that’s the baby that is born. If she doesnt get pregnant, the baby goes back into the circle and keeps going around with the other babies. Now listen mum, this is the cool part, It goes back into the circle, but it becomes a spirit baby. Each month its always the first in line. Isnt that great?”
    “So you just have to get pregnant again and you will have the same spirit baby. If you dont though, the baby circle will beam that little spirit baby over to some other woman’s circle, and it will be first in line for her. It keeps being first in line somewhere until it is finally born.
    “But its a shame for you not to have it yourself, because i know how much you want it. Mum, remember the baby you lost before i was born? well that was me, i was also a spirit baby”.
    Six months passed since my misscarriage, and i had finished yet another conversation with colin and his pleading for me to have a third baby. I asked him “Colin, i dont understand this passion you have for me to have another baby, why do you want one so much?”
    Colin looked at me with his swimming eyes and trembling lips and in a choking voice said, “Oh mum, just for the joy of it!”.

  199. Valerie Hooper February 15, 2012 at 7:29 am #

    There is nothing to say, except that I am so very very sorry for your broken hearts and the pain you feel. I hope that with time you are able to move forward with Charlie’s spirit beside and within you.

  200. Kasey February 15, 2012 at 8:23 am #

    Mt heart broke when I read your post. I can’t even begin to imagine what you and your wife are going through. My thoughts and prayers go out to you.

  201. Vyolet February 15, 2012 at 8:35 am #

    Wow I’m so very sorry I will keep your family in my prayers and I know your sweet angel is looking down on you all…xoxoxo

  202. sarah February 15, 2012 at 2:01 pm #

    I am so sorry from the bottom of my heart. Your strength and endurence has been so meaningful to my life. I couldnt be more sorry for the both of you.I couldn’t image the pain you are going through and want you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Even though my partner and I don’t know you personally your story has made such an impact on our lives and wish you both the best.

  203. Karem February 15, 2012 at 6:21 pm #

    This is beyond my believe 😦 You are the most perfect couple i’ve ever seen and i was very inspired by the two of you, still am. I’m sure that these time will not be the easiest but be sure that many of us pray for you and wish you the best. Thank you for being the kind of people i would like to be a few years from now… From Venezuela, with love.

  204. Jasmine Henry February 16, 2012 at 5:48 am #

    I am so sorry to hear this, my heart goes out to the two of you<3

    I hope your little girl finds peace now.

  205. Jen & Jen February 17, 2012 at 7:27 pm #

    We’ve been thinking about you two a lot, sending lots of love and positive, healing thoughts your way. I know there’s nothing that can be said that’ll make anything any easier. This is, without a doubt, the most difficult thing you’ll ever go through. Hold each other tight and don’t let go. 10 years ago I carried my baby girl to term. Went for an ultrasound the day before I was going to be induced to see how much she weighed and they did not find a heartbeat. I had to deliver a 10lb stillborn baby girl who had been doing summersaults in my belly 24 hours earlier. I know what you’re going through and I know it’s not easy. I couldn’t go out for months because the sight of a stroller or a family with a baby just put me over the edge. I’m here if you want to talk. jens2bd on twitter. My wife and I are praying for you both. Charlie and Kassidy are up in heaven watching over us and they’re trying to lift some of the grief. She doesn’t want to see you hurt. Hold onto each other girls. Lots of love coming your way. xoxo

  206. Ninni February 19, 2012 at 3:55 am #

    I am very sorry for your loss. I just read that your baby girl went to heaven. I just cryed my eyed out. I can imagine your and Coris pain and sadness. It stab me in my heart. I love you guys. You and Cori are rolemodels for me and my girlfriend. I can say on her behaf, that she is so sad what happened you two. If you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me.

    I love you guys. I will pray for you. ❤

  207. Carrue February 19, 2012 at 12:36 pm #

    Your story rings so true to both my wife and I. We were so blessed that in August 2011, the third month of TTC, we in fact celebrated a pregnancy! We were overjoyed! On our 2nd wedding annivesary we got to see our baby on ultrasound for the first time. I was completely and totally in love. I didn’t think I could love anything more than my wife. But I had such joy in my heart. Often at work, or driving in the car my mind would begin to wander to think about the little being growing in my wife. She was so tired all the time, and nauseous almost as often. We celebrated each week with the growing anticipation of getting to tell family and friends after the first trimester passed safely. On October 20 we went in for another routine ultrasound, only to find that are little no longer had a heart beat. That moment, knowing that our world had just crashed down and we would never be the same. There was so much grieving and tears that weekend. In an incredibly horrible irony my wifes body wouldn’t let go of the baby on its own. She had to continue on for a week knowing that our baby was inside her, and it was dead. A week later under doctor advise and that we wanted to be able to start to move forward, my wife went had a d and C performed in the hospital. Sitting there in the waiting room was challenging I tried so hard to be strong, but I had such fear of the health of my wife.

    The holidays were challenging. It was supposed to be right around Christmas that we would find out the gender of our baby. We were going to keep it a secret and unwrap on Chistmas day the piece of paper that the ultrasound tech had written on. We couldn’t imagine a greater gift. Instead I gave my wife a heart shaped necklace, with two birthstones, October for the month our baby passed and May for when our baby was due.

    We have begun to get back in the saddle of fertillity so to speak. WIth the OPK kits, and teh ultrasounds, and bloodwork, and ordering sperm etc. We try to keep faith alive. It is the only thing we can hold onto at this point. We know that May will be challenging, as all the what if or our baby will be even more present that month. If anything we have learned that so many people, straight, gay, etc take fertility for granted. I hope that maybe just maybe I will be even a better of a mom because of the difficult path that we have taken to finally fainlly someday hold my sweet little. I have held on to the quote lately ” It will all be okay in the end, if it isn’t okay, then it isn’t the end”

    I will continue to check in on you both. I feel that I “know” you. Which is strange…but my wife and I completely related to your relationship and your quest for baby making in season 2. Someone how it is so comforting to know that their is another happily married lesbian couple on the other side of the country that understands that pain of love and loss. All the best to you both.

    Carrie

  208. Rin February 19, 2012 at 11:02 pm #

    My heart goes out to you both, as a woman beginning the journey to become a gay mum.the planning, the waiting…I can not imagine the pain you have experienced. My fingers & toes crossed you’ll become mums again soon

  209. Vivv February 20, 2012 at 9:27 pm #

    my heart goes out to you both. know that there is a village backing you up and sending you good energy. much love.

  210. lu February 22, 2012 at 12:00 pm #

    I’m so sorry for your loss.
    I have just gone through the very same tragedy, it’s like reading my own thoughts..
    Thank you for sharing your story so eloquently. I know no one, or nothing, can prepare you for that horrible experience, and few can understand the grief that follows.
    Keep fighting, don’t give up! Lots of love and blessings.

  211. montoya February 23, 2012 at 10:33 pm #

    I am sooo sorry ladies for your loss 😦 this is very sad & definitely made me cry. I’m sorry that this happened to you guys, unfortunately, everything happens for a reason. & i hope you guys are going to be okay. Keep your head up & you have my prayers. xoxoxo

  212. Penny fleisher February 27, 2012 at 12:07 am #

    Cori and Kacy,
    I know your pain all to well.And I would have to say reading your story broke my heart. I can feel a crack with every word. It’s as if I relived my moment as well with my pregnancy all over again.(please do not feel bad about that at all) I was also 5 months pregnant with my daughter when I the same exact thing happened to me. If you go back 3 and half months before that moment when i went into premature labor with my daughter you will find that I lost her fraternal twin brother. I did all I could to keep my baby girl safe as you did with yours. My little girl, Emma was born to us July 8th 2007. She is now 4. As I sit here writing this I almost hesitate to share that with you because I do not want you to be even more saddened about your situation.. but I know that you guys would love to know that she is my miracle baby.She overcame so many adversities starting at being just 6 weeks old in my womb when I lost her brother and could have lost her.. and then again at 20 weeks. And when she was delivered her heart rate had stopped.. I do want to tell you that I pray for you guys and send many happy thoughts your way. I pray that God sends you comfort in your time of loss.. and through out the years to come. Just please know that we all love you and are thinking of you.

  213. Terri Short February 27, 2012 at 12:14 am #

    I’m terribly sorry for your loss! I actually have the same problem right now. I’m in the hospital due to an incompetent cervix and have been here for 5 weeks now on strict bed rest. Cervix is less than .5 cm in length. Hoping to continue for another 5 weeks.
    I know somewhat how you feel. I was so scared when I found out, as I have PCOS and it’s already a miracle to be pregnant. I can’t imagine what it was like for it to actually happen. I hope that you guys have success in the future and I’m sure you will! They can put in a cerclage between 12 to 14 weeks once you get pregnant again and it should prevent that from happening since they already know why it happened this time. I wish you girls allllllll the luck in the world and hope you get to grow your family! Sending love your way! ❤

  214. Danielle February 27, 2012 at 4:40 pm #

    Cori and Kacy,

    I am so so deeply sorry for your loss. There are no words to express it adequately. Much love to both of you…you are in my thoughts.

  215. Michelle February 29, 2012 at 6:48 pm #

    i am so sorry for your loss.
    hugs & love to you both.

  216. Deidre March 2, 2012 at 4:07 pm #

    Wow, I send my condolences. Right about now, I feel like a complete jerk. A few weeks ago, I posted a response to one of your tweet that implied that you and Cori were still pregnant. Now I feel that my response was so inappropriate. Although my reply wasn’t malicious or abrasive, I would like to apologize. I know this may seem a little late, but my thoughts and prayers are with you guys.

  217. Tracy March 3, 2012 at 8:53 pm #

    I am so sorry for your loss. In watching The Real World, the one thing that I kept thinking was, these beautiful women have such a love for each other. The love you have for each other was undeniable. I pray that it is that love that will see you through. Love & peace to you both.

  218. Mellissa March 9, 2012 at 1:01 pm #

    I can’t even begin to fathom the strength that had to come from within the both of you to deal with such a heartbreaking situation. I was, and still am, completely shocked and taken back by reading this just the other day, I started crying as I read it out loud to my girlfriend. I am extremely sorry for your loss and I hope you will never have to endure such a unexpected circumstance like this again. You two are a beautifully respected couple that deserve everything you ever want or need, and what you need is the strength and courage in each other, and I feel you will never lose sight of that. I wish you to the best in all that you do, and remember to always keep your head up high and maintain those positive attitudes as you will be blessed with another miracle in one way or another. Even though your we’re strangers to eachother, I am honored to have followed these blog posts as though we aren’t strangers. Thank you to the both of you for being who your are and sharing that with the world. 🙂

  219. Simplesmente Terezah March 10, 2012 at 5:47 pm #

    Hi Dear, I live in Brazil with my girl, and watched trlw and I identified a lot with you and your beautiful wife, we were happy when he learned she was pregnant, and I was sad to know what happened to you guys.
    I know that no words change what happened, but I want to say only that nothing happens by chance, in all things God has a purpose, do not understand, do not accept, and you guys are very strong, the love of you is beautiful, strong, and this story will help many people still much to overcome.
    you guys were not chosen by chance to participate in this program that came in several places of this world to change lives. Are you two are our idols, you guys are going to overcome this phase, and the love of you will grow even more. Force, you are not alone, because they do not travel, come to Brazil to learn the Rio de Janeiro, our house will be open door!
    Sorry my english, I’m still studying! 🙂
    my contact facebook
    http://www.facebook.com / terezzuda
    Stay with God! Kisses to you guys!

  220. Lyndsey clark March 11, 2012 at 2:17 pm #

    I would first like to start off by saying how much of an inspiration you all’s journey has been. Your love and devotion to one another is beautiful in every way . As I was watching the past season all I could was think about the day I meet the one God has designed for me. You are amazing people in ever way and even though I do not know you personally I admire you both. I would also like to send my love and prayers to you both. It is never easy losing someone you love especially a child. I cannot imagine the pain you both feel everyday. I will continue to lift you both up on my prayers. I prayer that one day if it is in your plans and Gods as well you will be blessed with the gift of life again. You both were faced with the challenge of being mothers and losing your precious baby all at once. It is a confusing and horrible thing to grasp but I pray that you do do not lose hope and you always remember your precious angel is always smiling down on you. If our paths ever cross I hope to express my graditude and compassion toward you both. Remember you are an inspiration and your love brings hope to me and so many others.
    With a heavy heart and love
    Lyndsey Clark

  221. brittany March 12, 2012 at 12:36 am #

    my thoughts and prayers are with you both. my heart aches for the both of you as it did for my sister at the loss of her 6 months old baby girl. keep your heads up and be there for each other and you shall make it through anything.

  222. Monique March 13, 2012 at 12:33 am #

    I adore the both of you, and I am completely heart broken for your loss. I cannot imagine what you both had to go through. I am so sorry that this happened to such beautiful people. I am so glad you have each other to get through this. I will keep u an Charlie in my thoughts and prayers.. And I hope you are blessed with another chance at a beautiful family again. Stay strong. ❤

  223. Tfortwo March 13, 2012 at 10:22 am #

    Words can never describe the loss of a child. My girlfriend and I have followed your journey since the show and through your blogs. Your angel is now in heaven watching over you. Never give up on the love that you have for each other. You both are such inspiring women and time will heal this pain and you will be happy once again. Love, hugs and prayers to you both.

  224. yourstylejourney March 13, 2012 at 8:41 pm #

    😦 I have no words, but I’ll send my prayers. stay strong

  225. Rhonda Knox March 15, 2012 at 11:51 pm #

    I was so sad to hear about the loss of your little girl. U two are such an incredible couple and I know that the two of u can get through this. My thoughts and prayers go out to u both. Little Charlie would have been the luckiest little girl to have the two of you as her parents. RIP Charlie

  226. Bethany March 19, 2012 at 1:40 am #

    Thank you for sharing your story. I would imagine it’s not always easy to have your healing and bravery and openness on display, but we are all stronger for it. With gratitude.

  227. Miranda Brickman March 26, 2012 at 6:42 pm #

    My girlfriend and I have been through this twice now. She lost our son at 18 weeks, and I lost our daughter at 34 due to a doctors mistake. We never expected to be in this position, and you never expect to have to deal with this unique brand of heartache. If you ever need to talk feel free to send me an email. I know how difficult it is to say goodbye to someone you never even really got to say hello to… My daughter looked just like me too. I think that makes it even more heartbreaking….

  228. Dylan April 8, 2012 at 3:37 pm #

    I am so very sorry….. I hope you know I support you both, without even knowing you I adore your family like my own and I wish all the best for you both. Do not feel alone. ❤

  229. tattogrl April 16, 2012 at 9:16 pm #

    Heartbreaking news, My your angel always watch over you and you watch over her..

  230. tesha April 19, 2012 at 12:02 pm #

    From my family to yours we are so sorry for your loss my wife and I love you guys so much and as I have said before their are basically two lesbian couples in our home my wife stepped into a ready made family as I had six kids prior to meeting my beautiful wife 4 years ago,but our daughter and her girlfriend age 16 and 17 they have been together a year and they plan on having kids together they have also followed your journey and we all just read your story today and we all cried my wife is at work so I’m sure she will be heartbroken for you as well,it is so sad the loss of a sweet angel.we will continue to follow the two of you on your life journey ,,and we send our love ,light and thoughts and prayer to your family we will hold you close always.

  231. Rebecca April 26, 2012 at 12:24 pm #

    omg, i am so sorry to hear this. i just read it from your face book page. soooo sooo sorry for your loss. i pulled for you guys watching you trying to conceive on the show. i hope you don’t end your journey to be parents. just pray for your little girl and know she’s in a better place than we are!

  232. Kaylynn May 8, 2012 at 3:04 pm #

    I admire the fight you two have. You two will be amazing mothers. I am truly sorry to hear the loss of baby Charlie. Do not lose hope! You two are the strongest women I have ever seen. My thoughts and prayers are with you guys!

    – kaylynn-

  233. Mariefe Carreon May 12, 2012 at 9:59 am #

    I am so sorry to hear such devastating news. God bless you both.

  234. cat May 25, 2012 at 9:51 pm #

    i couldn’t help but cry while reading this. i hope you are both doing well. just watched the two seasons again and it’s so obvious what wonderful parents you would make. it’s frustrating and sad seeing that someone who so desperately desires a child must go through such difficulties and tragedies. for what it’s worth, i wish our bodies could switch (i’d help in a heartbeat!); i’ve known all my life that motherhood is not for me. it’s a shame, then, that i am in a place to physically have a child when you both deserve this blessing so, so much. who knows, though. maybe nature has a plan. maybe everything _does_ happen for a reason. sincere luck.
    cat

    • cat May 25, 2012 at 9:54 pm #

      ps: you two are only thee cutest couple i have ever seen!

  235. Tanja May 30, 2012 at 2:03 pm #

    (Please forgive my English in the following text, I’m from Austria, therefore English is not my first language.) I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your loss. It is just unfair that some people always seem to must fight and struggle their way through life. I surely can’t even imagine the pain and suffering you two have been and are still going through, but I wish you a lot of strength, love, faith and hope to get through this hard time. You are just such a beautiful, amazing and loving couple and I wish you all the best for your future.

  236. Krystal June 13, 2012 at 4:36 pm #

    I am in tears after reading your story..I am so sorry for the loss of your angel, I am just watching an old episode of the l word and I was curious to see if you got pregnant..and found your blog….I am 8 weeks pregnant after my husband and I tried for 13 months…I pray you both are able to expand your family and a precious bundle of joy..the love you two have for each other is amazing! I wish you both the best! Krystal

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