Ok, so my dreams of becoming a big-time blogger were short lived…very short lived…I wrote one whole blog. But I am back, refocused, rededicated and I’ve got lots to say 🙂
Since my first and last blog, 10 months ago (I bow my head in shame) a lot has happened, to say the least. Kacy and I decided to one-up my idea of blogging about our babymaking adventures and ended up sharing them on a docu-series on Showtime called The Real L Word (thus the blogging hiatus). For anyone who didn’t watch the show and for those who did but want more detail then the editors who chopped our life up into pieces chose to show, I will start from somewhere close to the beginning….
Kacy and I want to be parents, we are ready to be parents and we cannot wait to be parents. If only really, really wanting something was enough to make it happen. Unfortunately, as we quickly learned, it’s not. We started this journey with grand ideas of how we thought things would/should work, we were a bit delusional. We figured it would go something like: Get baby batter, inject baby batter, wait 9 months, become mommies. We were obviously wrong. We had a lot to learn.
Our first hurdle was deciding who the lucky donor would be. We originally wanted someone we knew, someone we trusted. Convincing one of our friends to not only give us the gift of life, but also do it on television was harder than we thought. So we switched to plan B. We found an incredible sperm bank, Xytex (I’ll post a link to their website below). They had so many great donors with extensive profiles, medical histories, and personal essays and even had pictures of them as children and adults. We found a donor that we both agreed was “the one”. And the baby-making began.
As many of you may have witnessed, our first insemination was unsuccessful. It was heartbreaking. We now know that this process can take a very long time, but back then we thought we would be special. Maybe we thought that because we were sharing the most intimate details of our lives on television that the universe would have to give us a happy ending. How can a series following a couple trying to get pregnant not end with a baby? Oh, it can, and it did.
Since we began this process in February we have inseminated five times, the last being thirteen days ago. Since the show ended so many people have asked if I was pregnant, I wasn’t avoiding the question because I didn’t want to share with you (it’s a little too late for that) I just simply didn’t know. Well, now I do, and I am not. It was a hard day, the hardest yet actually. This time around I tried the hormones, I took Clomid and also an HCG injection. I really, truly believed this time was going to be it. With the hell the hormones put me through I figured it had to work, the baby gods owed it to me. So when I woke up this morning to be proven wrong, I was devastated. I am so grateful to have Kacy, she is so supportive and loving and really knows how to keep me together when I just want to fall apart (as many of you probably noticed). She is my rock and if the universe decides that it will only be her and I, I will be ok with that. But until then we are going to keep trying, I will do whatever I need to do. I will take the crazy hormones, I will drink the teas and take the herbs, I will continue fertility acupuncture (by the way my acupuncturist is amazing, her info is below as well) I will try every doctor, specialist or medicine man under the sun. We are in this and there is no one else I would rather be in this with than her.
What also has helped get me through today was all of the tweets and Facebook messages we have received from perfect strangers. I have and always will read every single one. So many of you have taken the time out of your busy lives to let us know we are in your thought and prayers, to let us know that we are supported and to even open up share your stories with us. You have reminded me that we are not alone in this and made me even more thankful that we were giving such an amazing opportunity.
I promise to keep this blog updated with any news, good or bad and continue sharing this journey we are on with anyone who wants to stick around.
Also, if you have any blog ideas for me I would love to hear them. I am sure you have heard enough sperm talk to last a lifetime so let me know what you want to know! I am an open book. 🙂
Love to you all and thanks for reading!
XO
C
As promised:
Xytex Sperm Bank – http://xytex.com/
Virginia @ Tower Acupuncture: (310) 230-5489 – Santa Monica, Ca
You should also check out our friends website http://itsconceivablenow.com
You can also chat with us on twitter – @CoriCupcake & @KacyChristine or on Our Facebook page – https://www.facebook.com/pages/Cori-and-Kacy-The-real-L-Word-2/209633879075623
Adventures in Baby Making 